Friday, September 23, 2005

Is anyone out there?

Ever had a day when you just felt alone in the world? Like nobody understands, or is even close to being on the same wavelength you are on.

I live in a connected relationship with many, either by phone, IM, email or postal mail. Even my husband is a long distance relationship right now.

Sometimes I wonder what else people are doing while I am talking to them? What percentage of their attention do I really have? Did what I say get lost in translation. I am so much of a body language interpreter, it is difficult for me to feel the quality of my conversations is even close to what they would be if they were face to face.

But some communication is better than none. For I truly appreciate that I can at least talk to my husband on the phone, to the letters only it will become when he goes overseas. There will be occasional calls, but the contact comes down to the written word versus the spoken in the long run.

I miss facial expressions......

Friday, September 16, 2005

State of the Nation

I have almost avoided commenting on the Hurricane Katrina aftermath. It has been so upsetting for me. I have spent a lot of time crying and just asking why and when?

I have to say I have never been more embarrassed to be a citizen of the USA. We are humanitarians all across the world, or so we pretend to be in countries that economic importance to us. We put an image of helping the world. That bubble was burst in the worst way.

The racial tension and economic divide has not been at the current levels for sometime. And not been so worldly broadcast. Everyone could see what was not being done and who it was not being done for.

Shame on US government. The people of this country reached out and were able to start helping before the government. People banded together raised contributions and goods and set off to get it where it needed to go.

I have a pretty good idea of hurricane preparation, had my first 3 last year. Watching them come for days if not a week. Public advisories put out on hourly basis. I also know that before every hurricane I have seen in FL, depending on where they expect the greatest amount of damage, the supplies to provided in aftermath, where prepared and kept at arms length, to be able to get there quickly. Insurance teams, Red Cross, FEMA, all ready, sitting for storm to clear to move in and help.

What the hell happened????

I am not into the blame game, it never gets anyone anywhere, I care for doing right by our people, ALL OF OUR PEOPLE. For the sense of security to know we are all here for each other. To feel in times of crisis our nation people and GOVERNMENT would be doing all they can.

If you have a minute take a look here or here to really get a feeling of how bad this was and how much we need to do, to be sure nothing like this ever happens again.

Tuesday, September 13, 2005

Fact of Fiction???

I am an infamous sufferer from time lapse syndrome. I will start something and be really into it, then it fades away, to be rekindled randomly, so here we are. I have been distracted and have not blogged, but I am back, with yet another quandary.

I have often been called an intelligent person, I hold myself to be a good study of life due to analytical nature. I have always had a slight discrepancy in my person beliefs when it comes to the supernatural you might say.

Logic tells me that to believe in most supernatural means to admit a belief in some sort of life after death. I am not quite sure in my mind what I believe happens after death. I never been a religious person having studied so many of them in great detail I believe that they are all human attempts to explain that which we do not know. A close friend share this point of view with me and it made so much sense, was amazed I had never come to this conclusion before. It ran right in hand with my opinion that with the growth of society and the knowledged gained religions changed, that they were just interpretation of man's mind at the time.

While saying I am not religious, please do not take this mean I am not spiritual at all. I believe in the human spirit, that there is something within all of us that can be nourished or neglected, and that the way we treat our spirit and the spirits of others, greatly influences the outcome of our lives.

Weather or not I would be able to really say we have spiritual being which could be separated from our body or if I can idealizing a series of chemical and emotional reactions to life and others... Well whatever gets you through the day I say.

But this again, is where a major opposition in my thoughts comes from. To believe in spirits and ghost, would mean that there is a spiritual being that can be separated from the flesh.

How many people can say that they have never walked somewhere and either stopped or got scared for some reason, something just didn't feel right?

How many people can say that when they decided they were going to put there best foot forward and have a positive day that it did not effect someone else they came in contact with that day?

I guess I do we believe that we put off positive and negative energies, that others can sense them, I do also believe they are capable of lingering.

I guess I will always be conflicted, unless in someway or another I come in direct contact with a spirit, it probably won't be settles until I die.