Friday, January 24, 2014

20 adjectives that describe who I REALLY am.

Self discovery exercise: write 20 adjectives that I feel really describe me:
1. Resourceful
2. Determined
3. Sensitive
4. Creative
5. Eager
6. Insecure
7. Stubborn
8. Caring
9. Helpful
10. Enthusiastic
11. Persuasive 
12. Brave
13. Analytical
14. Organized
15. Loyal
16. Imaginative
17. Hopeful
18. Unique
19. Passionate
20. Curious 

Strange to do, but really telling to try and look at something from many different angles before even attempting to pull the information together into something that makes sense and has purpose.

To thine own self be true.

Tuesday, January 14, 2014

Survey of Character Strengths

As part of the women's club I am a part of this year each month there is a reading , and then activities followed by a group meeting all with same theme. We have started 1st module, self discovery. Last week we got reading, this week is activities.

As part of the rediscovering myself theme, I was asked to take a character survey. The survey reveal which 5 character strengths are top of my list. My top 5.

Your Top Strength
Bravery and valor
You are a courageous person who does not shrink from threat, challenge, difficulty, or pain. You speak up for what is right even if there is opposition. You act on your convictions.
Your Second Strength
Creativity, ingenuity, and originality
Thinking of new ways to do things is a crucial part of who you are. You are never content with doing something the conventional way if a better way is possible.
Your Third Strength
Kindness and generosity
You are kind and generous to others, and you are never too busy to do a favor. You enjoy doing good deeds for others, even if you do not know them well.
Your Fourth Strength
Love of learning
You love learning new things, whether in a class or on your own. You have always loved school, reading, and museums-anywhere and everywhere there is an opportunity to learn.
Your Fifth Strength
Curiosity and interest in the world
You are curious about everything. You are always asking questions, and you find all subjects and topics fascinating. You like exploration and discovery.

Will be back to write more on these.

Thursday, January 09, 2014

And I am?

OK, so in this effort to get to know the real me I am starting a list. This list will contain things I have not ever been really open about. I have made small efforts at things, but never really give in public before.

Some of these are really embarrassing to me, but who the heck cares. Tease me, I am grown enough to not really care.

I am ready to come out and see what is the sum of those things. What can I do to make my life one  I love living. I am so grateful for the life I have. I just want to find a way to be a happy, healthy contributing part of my community. Any advice or ideas to share with me, use comments. A lot of you have experience sections of my life. anyone who has been around awhile knows a lot about me.

  1. I give more value to the opinions of others than one should allow. I rate your opinions higher my own.
  2. I LOVE to research!
  3. I am a Twihard.
  4. I LOVE music.
  5. I love checklists.
  6. I enjoy art of public speaking in both performing and viewing roles.
  7. I LOVE video games. I love their merchandise, their fans, their events.
  8. I love to travel
  9. I like conventions and trade shows, lots if them. Cars, Comics, Steampunk, health, parenting, women's, music, pop culture. Luv them all.
  10. I like costuming
  11. I made up my own words for cursing when my kids were little. God Bless America, frabber nabbers, fudge biscuits. 
  12. I have a hard time listening to music without singing along.
  13. I LOVE to write.
  14. I BELIEVE in service to others. 
  15. I enjoy entertainment/celebrity gossip.
  16. I am very detail oriented, I see more than others
  17. I am very empathetic, I am very effected by others feelings.
  18. I am very competitive
  19. I HATE traffic. Stop and Go kills me.
  20. I LOVE to drive.
  21. I like to support the underdog.
  22. I am UBER connected. Unplugged sounds so strange to me.
  23. I made a website about myself, to try and get hired at Riot Games.
  24. I have started the long term topic blog process once each year for a few years.
  25. I have a very ADDICTIVE prone personality. I can get very addicted very EASILY. 
  26. I am overthinker
  27. I LOVE working with small children.
  28. I enjoy working with Teens in need.
  29. I HATE hospitals. 
  30. I am intrinsically curious.
  31. I am extremely brave.

Thursday, January 02, 2014

New Years

I feel too young to say that I have had a ritual for  New Year's Eve that has remained unbroken for 20 years. Peet and I both have. It make look slightly different some years, but the end result has always been the same. Peet and I always spend the strike of midnight together. Whether we are shoulder to shoulder prepping for the midnight kiss or separated by oceans and thousands of miles, we have ALWAYS been together in some capacity when the clock strikes 12.

It might not sounds significant until you realize what this has actually looked like for us at times. There have been more than a few years where it took heroic efforts to be sure this remained true.

During both Peet's deployments overseas, he has managed to wrangle himself into being in in the right place in line for the phone to be sure he is talking with me as midnight struck in my timezone,which for each deployment was different  :) The last one when 2005 changed to 2006,that night it required some bartering and squad assisance to keep our tradition.

One year, it was me who was away from Peet at home. Running a New Year's Eve event across the state. I was frantically running to get far enough from the music and noise of the crowd so I could share that moment with him.

No argument, no communications difficulty, literally nothing has prevented Peet and I since our first New Year's Eve in high school from ensuring that the New Years tradition of being together as midnight strikes brings luck to your relationship in the next year.

One year, the phone conversation we had at midnight was the first we had talked in almost a week, and it brought us back together.

So what you say, who cares?

The fact that no matter what our circumstances have been, we have been willing to make this happen each year,is a great reminder to us both. It reminds us that anything we want, that we truly desires we can achieve if we work for it. That the things we desires are worth making the effort for. We also get to see that sometimes things are easy and sometimes they are difficult, but they are still achievable.

Getting to start the New Year with not only the love of my life but also the strength and renewal this tradition holds is priceless. So to each of you and yours, I send New Year's wishes that you will realize what you want is only out of reach, if you aren't willing to work to get to it. Let 2014 be the year we all allow our dreams and efforts to achieve them result in the best year of our lives :)