Friday, September 07, 2012

Wow it's been a long time!

Allowing 6 years to pass since my last real blog writing, has created an overload of things I want to experience again and explore for myself while sharing that monologue with whomever is reading. I want to be open for whatever you value to share with me and strong enough to make necessary changes. I am not getting any younger and I have collected so much information, it is time to sort it out and make the best use of it to inspire the best version of me; to be the most present version of me.

 We all have multiples side;, stress, fatigue, patience and many, many other factors effect how we treat each other and the things around us. The best version of ourselves is one we are very proud of, not in any sort of smug, boastful way, just really the best of each our our assets displayed all at once time. The "BEST" you.

 Then we have the good me, which few areas of our selves are not displayed with the best level. It continues until we reach the version of ourselves that has only the worst aspect of each asset displayed all at one time.The "WORST" you.

 I want to start moving areas that are closer to "WORST" back towards "BEST", so that I can be more proud of the person I am displaying.

You may wonder, where is this coming from? Why today??

I have heard things lately and in the recent past, that have all started coming together in my head that have culminated unto the moment we are now sharing.

 Today I was told I was not a good role model for my daughters in various aspects. That means something to me. I want to be better than that.

This week I spoke with a wonderful friend about the difficulty in being truly honest.

 Last Sunday, I heard a talk about purpose and are we serving our purpose? I can't really say I am, and I need to change that.

A few months ago, I was told I was not learning from my mistakes by a colleague. I have experienced a lot in the last 6 years, it is time to sort through it find what I did right and wrong, and use that information to move towards the "BEST" me.

 I welcome you to join me on my journey, I am going to try and write often and ask for feedback and help, share if you feel motivated. Had something you always wanted to tell me, ask me, or ask of me, please do.

 I am going somewhere, not quite sure where, but it is time to take the first step and follow it through to where ever it goes. Help keep me on track.